You are trying to do so much. My best advice is dial it all way back. Personally, the more I need to get done the less I'm able to do. So I have to ruthlessly cut everything back for a period until I'm able to cope. Really all that needs to be done is keeping yourself from seriously hurting yourself or others. Everything else can go hang at least for awhile. Hugs and Kisses Rose. I hope things get better for you soon.